I never knew how difficult it is to say sorry until yesterday.

I can't seem to string up the 5 letters into this magic word.

But, in the end, I said it.

虽然我是多么的不愿意，虽然我是多么的不想说，在最后，我还是说了。
因为自私的想法对大家没有好处。
因为我的的确确是因该。

I thank God for giving me the courage to press the Send button, I thank Him for leading me to the "right" place, where I need to go.
Although I had a million misgivings, I guess I cannot be so 孩子气 anymore. As what you often say, "the world doesn't revolve around me."

Deep inside, I know... I know that my sorry is for the sake of saying sorry. Not that I don't feel sorry, but I do not want to say to them.
Up till this very day, I am still bothered and upset over the way they do things or the way they talk. Yes I admit...over the years, I have accumulated too much dislike that it's too thick to erase now.

I know and I agree that they are harmless people. But, I cannot register the way they do things and their ideas at times. And because I cannot tell them off upfront, all the displeasure and hard feelings build up. Yes, there are times when I talked about it but it often leads to more arguments because you will never understand.
I know its hard on you.. But end of the day, things are not going anywhere.

Yes I know.. I do not need to think too much about it. Just ignore them. Just nod my head and move on. Blah blah blah...
I guess we are all different people so do not expect me to react the same way you do.
Of course, I can only pray about it.. pray for the strength to overcome those negative feelings. pray for the strength to take things easier.
try to stay calm...and look at the other side. try to be in THEIR shoes.

Yes, I will and I should be able to.