Job (dis)Satisfaction

Do you feel jaded from the daily routines at work?

Have you ever wonder why? Is it because the job scope is too routine? Is it because you are faced with difficult clients / bosses / colleagues that drives you up the wall?

Or maybe, it just because you can't derive any job satisfaction.... like me..

Imagine looking at a few screens everyday. The numbers on the screen are more often red than green. You get greeted by calls from customers. You hear their depressing voices.. You read depressing reports on the markets. You look at depressing prices day after day.. Seated around you are depressing colleagues. you indirectly cause customers to lose money.

I am getting myself spin into the web of depression. slowly, but surely.

I need to find myself back admist this depressing job environment. But first thing, I need a break. A Holiday to break myself from the depressing aura around me.

3 days more.....

On this coming Thurs, 11th Sept 2008, I will be left alone at home.
I will go work alone, eat dinner alone, watch TV alone and go to bed alone.
Till 13th Sept 2008.
Greg is going away on a company trip. Lucky its only for 3 days.
Cause I am starting to miss him already....

Of Shennigans, SouthPark and Calmness

Last Sat, we visited Christine's place. Went for a swim (that looks more like a 30-min soak) and we had steamboat!
WoohoO!!! Every weekend is almost a steamboat day...i love it!

Anyway, we were watching SouthPark. Seriously speaking, i have never watched Southpark before. But i totally lurve the way they speak.

They have this term : Shennigans, that they use for calling jerks, irritating people etc etc..

Because i have to ineveitably and very unwillingly contact such kind of people everyday, i shall name them as Shennigans too.

This morning, well..a Shennnigan called my office line and irritate the hell out of me again.
I sincerely pray that his d*ck will get chomped off by a fugly fat algae moulding alligator.

Random

I'm sorry for the lack of updates. This is going to be a very random post as there's too many random thoughts running thru my head now.

1. This morning
I only forgot to spray on my perfume this morning, but he forgot about his handphone. -_- win liao lor.
For me, i can work without my hp the whole day, prolly because not many people call me or perhaps i don't have many friends. But Mr Tham can't live without his mobile cum PDA for a single hour.
He says he is going to go home (kim tian) from woodlands to take his hp at around 11am. Then travel 35km up woodlands again. at 6pm, travel 35km down to town again for a meeting. i think we may just chalk up enough mileage points to exchange for some cool stuff by end year.

2. Life Coach
I need one. Any good recommendations?

3. Roller Blading
Am going to take up blading, in addition to swimming and running once a week.
Say Yes to a healthy body and mind.

Our New Baby

Yeah! We finally got our baby!!

She came to us on 13th of July. It was almost love at first sight.

She's dark, or rather black in fact.

She can run really fast if she wants to, though we prefer to control her.

She is quite a noisy baby but we will be doing something about the noise.

She is maintenance -friendly and easy on consumption.

We are now in the midst of shopping accesorries for her. We love to shop for her and dress her up..We take pride in her looks and ensure she is clean and shiny all day..

She is our new pride of joy.

A Black Honda Intergra.

Taking it for granted

We tend to take many things for granted.
Family, friends, health , job etc etc...

Recently, someone close to us discovered she has stage 3 cancer.
It was unexpected. She is young, active and a happy-go-lucky person.
Of course, we are all sure that she will fight it with a brave heart and win it hands down。

And it dawned on me that throughout all this while, I have been complaining of many things in life.
The many mundane and insignificant things in life.

And i have been taking my health for granted all the time, at times abusing my body with unhealthy stuff.

I don't wish to stop only when something bad happens, and i wish you won't too. Let's stop taking it for granted. Treasure whatever you have now because you can lose it anytime.

happy meal

remember how a trip to Mac will brighten up your day when you was just a child?

food, i thought is always something comforting to a otherwise dull day.
Isn't thats why we love chocolates so much?

the sight of your fav dish, the smell of the fragrance, the taste of the freshest ingredients, as u dig your teeth into every mouthful, do you actually feel much better after a good happy meal?

I used to. In fact, whenever i feel down, i just try to compensate it with a happy breakfast or lunch so that i will have a better day.

However, I no longer can now.

I wonder why.
These few days, I have been arguing a lot with Greg. I have distant myself from everyone around me. I am no longer funny nor happy.

I often try to self-medicate by indulging myself in that sinful large chunk of chocolate cake, or by eating my favourite food.
But yet, nowadays i still can't derive pleasure or feel happy after a happy meal.

I wish I am not like this too. I have been feeling so down that even I hate myself now. I hate myself for being such kind of a person. I hate myself for not trying hard enough to change for the better. I hate myself that after these few years, I am still the same old me.

Bad habits never die. Its so true for me.