Friday, February 20, 2009

最辛福的事

some excerpts from Liang Wen Ying's debut album..this song has wonderful lyrics and the MV is one of the best that i have seen.
Check it out at Youtube...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uw9Z70p2MlI&feature=PlayList&p=3E881809ABBAE3DB&index=

超感动! 每次听了,鼻子总是酸酸的。。。

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欢迎达乘思念特运.
我们现在将 从回忆出发, 延乘亿含, 一直走到青春。
左转往事到达记念日。接着,会经过失恋和舍得。

孤独山城 站.
失落 , Lost ----- 3km
青春 , Bloomy Youth------ 182 km away
到了沉默站,
为至爱的人,在左边心口保留位子,是最辛福的事。

然后,我们将从懂事离开, 上了珍惜共公路, 一直到沧海桑田。
我们要追逐着祝福的潮水。

思念点点站.
温柔---- 27km
遗憾草原。
寂寞超呼站.

遗憾出口。
眼泪下水道 , Tears Drainage---8 km
北上, 辛福, Happiness ---- 208km

一起往温柔前进,最后抵达目的地--- 最辛福的海。

Making a Choice

It's not going to be easy. But i have to think through in my most most clearest state of mind, in my most most matured and objective thinking and weigh out all the pros and cons.

Gosh...there must be a trade-off somewhere. If only i know.....

I seriously hate to make a decision. Maybe i am getting older. The consequences are too much to bear.

Remember when we were young? Time is all we have. I can jolly well make a wrong choice, admit the mistake and move on with it.

But that's like so hard now....I can't seem to fail...and do not want to fail.

But of course, even if i made the wrong choice, i still believe its ok. It may be a test for me..or just fate. Whatever it will be will be...

And i shall survive ...What doesn't kills me just makes me stronger

Thursday, February 19, 2009

I think i really really need to see a doctor soon....

I hope my body is ok. There's nothing wrong with me...

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Have been feeling a little down this week.

But, yet i think i manage to hide it rather well..behind the laughter, the fun and the jokes, is actually a face of sadness, thoughts of unhappiness and feelings of jealousy.

Its not that i want to hide, but rather circumstances have paved it that way for me..at K garden that night, i wasn't really enjoying myself..as to what others believe. But because its Joewe's birthday and birthdays are deemed to be happy occasions, I have to "act" accordingly. Life sucks.
And it's worse when it seems like there's really no one whom i can talk to.

I realise that i do not have much friends...real friends whom I can really share my deepest secrets and pour my sorrows to.
Though i can still talk to Greg, but a guy's view point most often contradicts a girls'.

I do envy those who have close girlfriends to talk to in needy times. Someone who will not judge you. someone who will hear you talk and not impose their own big, self-justified views on you.

Yes, i do not like and do not wish to hear your viewpoint. Yes, you ..that's you.
Isn't it irritating when people try to act so matured and talk about those 大道理?
Its not as if we don't know..but when emotions overides rationalism, isn't everyone equal?

I guess such is life. Its supposed to be unequal. But i do believe that nett effect is the same. When you lose some, you gain some.

Sigh...i don't know what i am writing anymore...
I think i need chocolates.

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Friendships, Religion, Money and The Material Life

Well, too many thoughts going through my tiny head past few days.

Hence a consolidated post of it...

Friendships
I attended a friend's wedding a week back and realise that my old friends..well, more or less have changed. Of course, that is just normal.. People do grow up and grow old. Viewpoints change. Priorties change. People do change.
I guess friendships need to be work on. Not taken for granted. Period.

Religion
In this coming new year, i hope to find a religion for myself. For a start, i will be enquiring and taking up the RCIA courses for Catholics. This does not equate to me being a Catholic at the end of the course, but more of an avenue to learn more about Christ and the Bible.

Money and the Material Life
2 days ago, i went shopping with Yeesze at Ngee Ann City.. where all the big flashy brands are housed. We visited almost every shop...tried on almost every bag but of course, left empty handed. Hahahahaha!
Well, i always felt that buying branded bags are such a total extravaganza. I don't mind the spulrge if i have the extra moolah....but in times like this, prolly Cash is king, right?
However, one just cant resist owing such nice bags...
then i recall what Mama always says (nags): There is no end to shopping. This week, you buy the prettiest dress. Next week, the shop is going to put another prettier one on sale. So, end of the day, do you still want to keep “chasing after it”?

And at such times, i do think back on the moolah i have been spending over the past few years. Especially applicable for the last 2 years.
I think its really about time i sit down and do some SERIOUS saving.

Chasing after the material life seems almost like for granted now. Take a look around you. Everyone is working their butts off everyday in office. Main purpose is to feed for oneself and paying for a roof over your head. Then, after paying off almost the car loan, the housing loan..its again time to upgrade and the loan starts all over again... Gosh, i hate the rat race but at the same time, i think i am, inevitably in it.