Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Monday, December 21, 2009

Hello Iphone!

During the Krabi trip, my E71 died on me for no apparent reason. The screen blackout. I cannot reply smses and cannot see anything.

I see it as a calling to get a phone...and so ......

Finally, i joined the Iphone Club!

After M1 and Starhub hopped onto the Iphone bandwagon, the whole world seems to be Qing up for this genius creation.

Now, my whole gang-bang is doing the Iphone thingy. Greg bought his yesterday and Audrey is getting it too! YAY!!! and Ben Neo is deciding too! I like it when the whole gang put their Iphones on the drinking tables. It looks so cool!

At first, I thought its a complicated phone...but NO!!! The interface is simple and really IT-idiot proof.
With so many cool and useful applications, it makes life really much easier.
Besides checking emails on the go, replying msn messages and all the usual stuff, I can check prices, keep in touch with news, play games on the train, know the mall directory, know when is the next bus arriving, check out the weather, transfer funds anytime anywhere.

The magic is the wide screen. You feel like you are carrying a wonder super mini notebook with you all the time.

20th Dec 2009

Last Sunday, I had a craving for something crunchy, something healthy and something spicy.

As I was alone at home, I decided to cook for myself a simple lunch.

Hence....Tadah!!!



Its simple to cook, yet so heathly and yummy!

First of all, soak the dried shrimps and "tang hoon".
Wash and cut up the cabbage.
Fry some garlic in a well-heated pan.
Throw in the dried shrimps and stir fry it for a few mins until the dried shrimps turn slightly brownish.
Then add in the cabbage and fry for another 1-2 mins.
Now, you can add in the tanghoon. Do make sure that its soft.
Add in seasonings and one small cup of water to soak up the tanghoon.
Cover with a lid for 2 mins.
Give everything a good stir and tadah!!!
p.s: i added some chili padi for spicy lovers!

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

A visit to the dentist

Yesterday, I visited the dentist for my yearly check-up.

It was Lee & Ong, much recommended by Bastian. I must say it is really prety good.
Located at the basement of Far East Shopping Centre, the reception area of the spacious clinic has a spa-like feel.

For normal polishing and scaling services, it will be done by the hygenist. Charges are reasonable at $70. For more complex services, you have to get Dr Lee or Dr Ong.

I had my usual cleaning up done by a gentle and polite girl. She is really good. Patient and sweet. I love the squeaky clean feeling!

After the dentist visit, I met up with Audrey for drinks at Emerald Hill. We visited this one called Outdoors. This place stands where the old Papa Joe used to stand.

We took a peep at ICB and Alley Bar... and those memories came flooding back to me.
Its been a while.. 5 years ago.. Dage, Me and Milly..we travel all the way from AMK to ICB for a cold Hoegarden...and the famous ICB pizza and wings. Those days, we were out of branch by 4.30pm and by 5pm, we joined the early crowd for happy hour beer. It was a routine every other day. Sometimes we sit outdoors to enjoy the evening breeze while we drank our beer. At other times, we walked through the wooden staircase and sit at the bar counter on the 2nd floor. Those days, smoking was allowed indoors and I remember the strong smell of cigg smoke on my clothes and hair every night.

Despite everything, we had our usual daily rants and endless gossips. the jokes and fun was incredible. The laughter was magical and the friendship, irreplacable.

But, that was then. 5 years later, we have drifted furthur. The calls became lesser. The smses fewer. I think its time for me to pick up my phone soon. The best part of it is I can still remember their numbers by heart. Phew...

Blog Backlogs

No updates from me for so long. Fret Not, I am still around. Muahahahha!

I am just pretty overwhelmed by the Dec Hols, the catching-up with old friends and all the X'masssy stuff.

Many posts to be updated.
In random order, FYI, you can expect to read :
1. We Love Thailand
2. The Bintan Getaway
3. Helo , Iphone!
4. The 2 week break
5. Am I ready or worthy to receive You?
6. Heels - don't we all love them?
7. Tis the season to be Jolly!

i hope i am effective enough.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Expectations

How many times have we hear of this word: "Expectations"?

I guess even if we seldom hear of this word, subconsciously, we are using this "expectation" on ourselves all the time.

Actually, Greg used to talk to me a lot on this "expectation" theory. I did not think much of it until the church retreat last weekend. Sis Elizabeth just put it across in a good way that it kinda sums up everything and makes it easy for everyone to understand.

She said to have high level of happiness, lower your expectations.

Greg used to say we should manage our expectations. i.e. Do not expect others to do what we expect them to do.

Come to think of it, its true..ain't it?
The world and society have become so fast-paced that we are required to do more than the required norm. As a result, unknowingly, we have created a higher level of expectation for ourselves.
Because of this, subconsciously, we may have also imposed the same high level of expectation on others. (colleagues, family, friends, partners etc)
However, what happens when the so-called expectations are not met?
Do we get upset or resent over it?

As time goes by, are we becoming more unhappy because we have a so-called level of expectations and we expect ourselves and even others to reach it?

And so, as what Sis Elizabeth said, to have high levels of happiness, keep our expectations low.

Isn't it true how genuinely happy we are when something nice unexpectedly happens?

Just like last sat at the roadshow, I did not expect to open any accounts. But I was very happy that day when I managed to open accounts at the end of the day. Of course, there's a "danger" to lowering expectations. Its a pretty thin line between scraping through life and keeping our expectations at the right level. If we keep it too low, we may end up having a too laid-back attitude about life.
If we give ourselves an unattainable target, we may end up being over-stressed.
I guess, the crux is on managing it every now and then. More importantly, we should remind ourselves constantly to manage our OWN expectations and respect others' as well.

I guess after all, its not that difficult to live a simple and happy life. The problem is that we tend to complicate matters too much. I guess humans are too brainy, hence the mind tends to read too much into things.

xoxo,
:P

Monday, November 2, 2009

GE Women Run 2009

I DID IT! FINALLY, its OVER!

My very first 10km clocked in. Seriously, I have never done any serious running before. The most I jogged was 7km. Despite the lack of training, I think I am rather satisfied with myself, just for the sheer determination to finish the race without stopping.

I slept for 3 hrs on Sat night and was really worried that I am not able to handle the run...whats more my first time running 10km.

However, I should really thank God for the perfect weather on Sun morning. Having rained heavily the previous night, the morning air was crisp and breezy.
While waiting for a cab, I even met 2 other girls going for the run and we shared the cab down together. They were just staying around my area. As we were all wearing the same Fila sponsored Tee, we could recognise each other and there was the welcoming smiles exchanged on first sight. I really like that a lot.

I reached the starting point at about 7.02am or so... but there was already many many many runners in the line up before me. My start delay time was 4min and 47s. I didnt had the time to do warm ups! I remembered running past a whole bevy of crowd cheering us, with some funky music blasting through the air.

I hooked on mp3 and there I go! As I run through the sea of red, I paced myself well and stayed close to my breathing. I was enjoying the breeze and the smell of morning dew.

Very soon, I ran past 3km. At 5km, I told myself I am halfway to the finishing line. I recall seeing some familar faces from church. It was rather nice.
I replenished my body with H20 and 100 plus and it perked me up. Maybe it was psychological.. hahaha..

At around the 7km mark, there were many who slowed down and started to walk. I was very tempted as I felt my knees going really soft...But I keep telling myself to hold on for 1 more km and then, I'll rest. When I reached 8km, I told myself that it was a new resistance broke! 2 more km!
At 9km, I didnt want to stop anymore. Thoughts were running through my head rapidly. I told myself that since I can still run, I should just run all the way, non-stop to the finishing line. Its a personal commitment and if I achieve it, I can overcome anything.
I was probably somewhere around the Flyer area, where we were running on the F1 tracks. It started to drizzle lightly. The 8am sun was shining through and I told myself that its the last leg!

Throughout the run, I kind of mentally marked a certain runner in front of me and told myself to run past the girl. Once I ran past her, I give myself a "Good Job Done" and went on to overtake the next girl. Gosh, there must have been a competitive streak in me.

Thanks to Joewe's lightweight mp3, there was no burden in running at all, unlike the days where I carry the itouch. I downloaded Boa songs and I must admit that music carries a big impact for me.

At 9km, the marker was cheering us on. He was an uncle in his 50s and I cannot stop but marvel at the zest he had. He was standing in the light drizzle, waving the flag and shouting out "1km more! Girls go on !" I smiled at him and ran with all my might.
At the last 500m, I was feeling really good about the whole thing. It is almost coming to an end and I was very glad at myself.
Then 300m, 200m and then the last 100m....it was the last burst of fire.. I saw the finishing line and the crowd with their cheers and cameras. I saw the ticker for the timer. It was ticking away and I was sprinting with all the might my legs can carry me to the finishing line.

And YES! Finally, I made it!

Extracted from GE Women Website:
NAME: ONG MEIFANG LINDA
EVENT: 10Km
DATE: November 1, 2009
BIB/DIV: 3673 / Women Open
TIME: 1h:15m:22s (gun) / 1h:10m:35s (net)
Result in Entire Field - 2171st place (about 40% of finishers ahead)
Result in Division (Women Open) - 1061st place (about 33% of finishers ahead)
From Halfway to Finish, I passed 764 runners and 23 passed me.
Average Speed: 8.5Kph
My first half was : 8.3Kph
My 2nd half was : 8.7Kph

All along, I was never interested in running and could not understand the fuss about all this timing shito. But after this race, I finally understand when they say "To understand the value of 1s, ask the Olympic Silver Medal Winner".
1 second is all that matters.



*LUST*

Thursday, October 22, 2009

The Urbanite Couple, Table for 2 and the Magnum

Its Thursday today! I am always (you can also say I choose to be) happy on thursdays because its Friday after today! hehehehe..
Today happened to be one of the few times where I could meet Greg for dinner. It was rather nice. He picked me from work and we decided to make our way to GWC, Cold Storage to do some marketing before heading home to do a mini cook-out. If you've been there, you will know what I mean. This Cold Storage outlet is clean and neat with shelves of foodstuff lined up neatly. They also have a wider range of exported brands, due to the expats living around the area.

However, our marketing plan was "hijacked" by the advert outside Crystal Jade. They serve steamboat now! We did the math and realise it will make more economic sense to eat out than to buy all the stuff and head home to cook.
As it is, the bill for dinner was slightly below $50, inclusive of drinks. I am quite sure this amount will not be able to buy us the same wide variety of food in the supermarket, not to mention the washing up after dinner. That will be quite priceless. Hmmmm.

Anyway, the "pick-wife-up-after-work", table for 2, mall-walking, all made complete with the atas groceries shopping make me feel like one of those urbanite couples in the urban world. It actually quite nice to do such stuff once in a while.


~Greg~

~Da~

-the sauce is important besides the stock, k... hur hur hur...

~ very see-rye-ious-ly in stirring the sauce.



- Halloween is coming and Cold Storage is selling Jack-o-Lanterns! Cute! I asked Greg to pose with the biggest pumpkin but I think he kinda roll his eyes at me and walked away to the meats section. Well...................





I had craving for Magnum and we bought it back for supper. I remember it used to cost only $3 something, but it's now selling at $11 for a pack of 3 magnums. Haagen Daz was selling for $25 for 2 packs, so I thought if Magnum was a lil over-priced? Anyway, it's really good and the occassional indulgence doesn't hurt, right? Hehe..

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

The Office is the New Jungle

Rumors are hateful.

Rumors are everywhere.

I suppose life is simply too mundane for some busybodies out there that they love to create SOMETHING out of NOTHING at all.
It is almost akin to using the analogy of eating plain porridge everyday. I guess most people would prefer to add some spice and flavours into their food, such as how they love to come up with their own side of the story and "garnish" it with extra details.

The office is like a jungle. We spent one-third of our life in this jungle, working our butts off to create a better life for ourselves and our loved ones. Sometimes, we strive for more to achieve personal goals to add...well, the so-called depth and meaning to the otherwise boring jungle life.

How do you feel when you hear of untrue stories behind own back? And what about those rumors that are really malicious and bad.
How do you handle those people that are talking behind you and yet smiling in front of you?
Feelings of unfairness, anger, exasperation are being felt strongly. Do you confront those gossip mongers and clarify those rumors? If you do, does it help?
For all we know, they are already tired of the same old story and your confrontation will just serves as a new exciting story-line. Of course, when that happens, do not expect them to stick to the plain old truth, for it is .... well, PLAIN.

There is this verse in the Bible that says, "When someone strikes you on one cheek, offer them the other".

I wonder how many of us can really follow such teachings.

I just wish to live in my happy bubble and steer away from horrible evil people. Yucks. PUI.

Friday, October 9, 2009

the need to run

its 9am now. I woke up at 730am to prepare myself for the sat morning run.
but i dragged and laze around until now.

actually the weather this morning is perfect for runs. not much sun with a little bit of breeze. running on cloudy days are good. at least, i don't get dark.

BUT, i am so stuck in facebook games! and I am hungry because i woke up too early and went without food for 2 hours.

Ok, excuses excuses...

Maybe, maybe I will run tomorrow instead.

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Sneakers Wedges





the Coach ones are cute! and this is my fav pair from Keds!



I am so in love with these.

I don't care if they are last season or what, but I must get it!
Canvas material made comfy. The height made for a better looking silhouette. All complete with a sporty sweet design.
Perfect for minis and denim shorts! I can wear these for shopping, for weekend brunches or just for roaming around town!

Can't wait to lay my hands on one of these!

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Evanescence- My Immortal

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating life
Now I'm bound by the life you've left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Sleep Deprived

I thought the long weekend is good for me to catch up on sleep. Unfortunately, i ended up sleeping lesser.

Fri: slept at 2am
Sat: slept at 2am
Sun: slept at 4am

I need SLEEP. a sleep-deprived person suffers from headaches, body lethargic, mind malfunctioning, poor appetite, bad skin and many more.

Besides my bad sleeping habits, I have been drinking everyday this weekend. Overdraft on alcohol, deprived of sleep and not enough H2O intake is causing me to feel a lil groggy and a lil grumpy.

ROAAAARRRRRRRRRRR!!

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Baby Boomers

From Wikipedia: "Baby Boomer is a term used to describe a person who was born during the demographic Post-World War II baby boom. The term "baby boomer" is sometimes used in a cultural context, and sometimes used to describe someone who was born during the post-WWII baby boom."

I live in a matured estate and hence, there's a good number of elderly residents around me. They are the baby boomers.

During my first year of stay in my new place, I realised that funerals were rather common. The frequency was about once every 2 weeks or so. It then daunt on me that I am staying in a very matured neighbourhood.

Like a coin that has two sides, living around these elderly has its good and of course, bad.

Today while having dinner at the coffeeshop, this elderly uncle (he should be in his 60s) was clearing my plate. He was very friendly and asked me "hao chi ma"? I replied back politely, "hao chi". He then smiled at me. At that moment, I felt really warm and good at his smile. It's a kind of warm and sincere smile that reaches out to your heart.

Then, while in the lift, another auntie in her 50s striked a short conversation with me. When the door opened, she say bye to me. Again, I could feel the same sincerity i felt with the uncle.

As I reached my doorstep, I looked at my neighbour's unit. The auntie and uncle has been helping us to keep our shoes and floor mat everytime there's a block washing.

I think generally; the baby boomers, having lived a life of hardship are more simple and sincere. They are frugal yet rich in hearts. If you look around, the Gen X and Gen Y don't really chat with you in the lift. They do not smile as much and they prefer to live behind closed doors. I am guilty of all of these as well.

Of course, this is just generalisation and personal opinions. :PP

New colours~

oops, my blog has been dull for too long. black backgrounds, long stories, not much pictures, no music or tweets... and a horrible lack of updates..
decided to revamp my pathetic blog... but hey, I am not that creative so please don't expect too much.

I promise I will update more though. I try.

And so, for a new start, I changed the background to a dark grey. My fonts are now light pale pink and my headings in a brighter note of pink. Hey, I love the grey-pink combination!

I hope it's pleasing to your eyes toO!

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Recipe for a Happy Marriage

Exactly 1 year ago, I was looking and sourcing around for a wedding gift for Bro Keith and Joanne. I browsed through the World Wide Web and found this "receipe".
I had in mind to actually print out the words on a parchment and present it to the couple on their wedding day. Unfortunately, it did not happen as I was too lazy to get anything started.

Nonetheless, here's something worth pondering on.

Receipe for a Happy Marriage

1 cup consideration

1 cup courtesy

2 cupfuls flattery carefully concealed

1 gallon faith and trust in each other

2 cupfuls praise

1 small pinch of in-laws

1 reasonable budget, a generous dash of cooperation

3 teaspoon pure extract of "I'm sorry"

1 cup contentment

1 cup each confidence and encouragement

1 large or several small hobbies

1 cup blindness to the other's faults

Flavor with frequent portions of recreation and a dash of happy memories. Stir well and remove any specks of jealousy, temper or criticism. Sweeten well with generous portions of love and keep warm with a steady flame of devotion. Never serve with cold shoulder.

Monday, July 27, 2009

what our nights are made up of

well, the pictures kinda prove it. YES, its BEER and more BEER!
With Joewe and me around, our eyes just sparkle at the tots of having happy hour beers!
I went to Overeasy with Audrey on a friday and was hooked on that place! Its such a cool chill-out place!
Happy Hours are from 5 to 9pm. Draft beers, wine and housepours going for 1-for-1!
Also, when the going gets tough, they offer u mini beef burgers at $1 buck! and its really yummy! You get to enjoy this offer if the STI closes lower for that day.
So, head down to 1 Fulllerton and check out this place. Apparently, they are the same guys behind White Rabbit @ Harding Road and Loof @ Odeon Towers. ^Cool^

And so, when I was there .. i kept telling myself I need to bring Joewe and YZ there one day! and tadah, on a wednesday evening, Joewe and me turned out at Overeasy. The intention was to have SHORT drinks but haha, our short drinks always turned out LONG into the night. Well, this time the culprit is Erwin! This guy just touched down from the airport after his flight from Shanghai and came to meet us.. In the end, we ended up like 12 mn after eating Kway Chup for supper at Toa Payoh! I had a craving for it and wah, with Erwin's recommendation, you are in for a good meal!

The night at Overeasy was really nice, we had a bit of food, more beer, and lotsa girls' talk. Things may have changed for now, but I hope that one day, we can be back to the same again. Well, for now, here are some photos of our silly faces for the nights.








the stuff i cooked up during my leave

aahhhhh, so there you are.. 7 days of block leave.. no plans for trips, no plans for anything or anybody. Erhm, actually there were supposed to be some plans made up .. but let's just say there was an unexpected change in things.

so, just me and my cosy home for these 7 days.. i lurve to clean up my place at my own slow pace.(hey, it rhymes!) i like to cook up something easy and nice for him.
hehehe. its really quite nice to be a housewife for 7 days.. just for that 7 days will do cause, too much of it; i will be bored to death. hahaha.

the stuff i cooked up!


- snow peas with scallops in mama's home cooked hae bi hiam! just stir fry all of it ..its that easy!


- this is my fav dish cause i am such a sotong! oops i meant sotong fan!
i added onions and tomatos for the extra omph! the secret in this dish lies in the sambal paste used. it should be spicy and tangy..my mum bought it for me from toa payoh. there's no brand on the packet, so i can't share. sorry, guys!


- steamed snapper fillet fish with fried minced garlic on top.
the fried garlic idea was inspired by a Joseph's friend while drinking on a sunday night. This guy can cook real well and they were sharing some of their cooking hot tips and got me really geared up for the kitchen the following day.Unfortunately, the fish was a lil' under-cooked and i think he ate some raw fish. Oops!


- on the 2nd morning of my leave, i made a hearty brekkie for myself. I had ham n cheese toast with scrambled eggs, all made complete with my cuppa daily coffee! I am such a morning person! I love my brekkies!


Well, i didnt really cook much ..the rest of the stuff i did were really nothing much and hence, no photos to share.. next up is gonna be the stuff I did during my leave! stay tuned!

Monday, July 20, 2009

what happened?

i am still searching for the answer.
i drank alone, i stayed sober , i prayed , i jotted my thoughts down.
the whole world seems to have abandon me.

the knock on my head tells me so.

Monday, July 6, 2009

i love this video the most.




some disco in bali, where 2 of us just went wild and crazy.

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Dwindle of the Dance industry

The news reported that the dance industry in Singapore seems to be going downhill.

In singapore, there are really not many good local dancers. School grades and a rewarding career are being seen as the "right" route. As such, many children and teens take their ballet lessons as a hobby or a weekend routine.

When I was young, I did chinese dance and ballet. I remembered that it was my mum who asked me and big sis to join. Overtime, we grew fond of dance and was committed to it heavily. I remembered at one point in time, we had to go for dance lessons every other day during performance training period. Each lesson takes up a full day.
After Mama knows about this, as any parent, she told us to stop dancing.

And so, what I am trying to say is that there is no lack of dance talents in SG. But a lack of enthusiasm to develop potential good dancers. Dancers are a tough bunch. They put in hours and hours of hard work, going through repetitive rehearsals, work hard on mantaining the perfect dancer bodyframe. They have no fat bonuses and pay checks. Yet, you find them striving on because of PASSION. It drives them to work harder just to deliver a better performance.

I remember that we put in hours and hours of hard work. My dance teacher was very nice but very strict. He went through the same steps a millionth time till it was perfect. We had to do leg splits for 1 hour every session. However, when the show was finished and curtains drawn, every single effort was worth it when I heard the audiences' applause. It sounds like the most beautiful music ever heard.

Well, I never made it to the ballerina route. I guess I dont really have a flair in dancing. Over the years, I tried Chinese Dance, Ballet, Modern Dance, Hip Hop and it seems that I am stuck at that recreational levels.

It seems like a dream ..and well, sometimes I do dream a lot.. How nice if I take dancing as a career...if only I have the PASSION.

1 week break

Yippee , I am going on my block leave in......5 working days time...
counting down now!

Block Leave: a requirement for all in related fields of banking and finance. its a mandatory compliance by MAS. it requires us to go on leave for 7 continuous days.

On some years, I had to struggle to plan my block leave strategically cause its really a pain sometimes.

Most of the time, I take my block leave during my travel period. This year is a new change. With the H1NI being so active now, it seems that travelling is a chore.
Therefore, for my 2009 block leave, I will just bum around at home everyday, go for afternoon BEER, and enjoy the whole 7 long days lazing around, everywhere and anywhere!

The mere thought of that full 7 lazy weekdays just makes me so happy thinking about it!

I can go window shopping without having to squeeze with the weekend shoppers.
I can watch good movies at cheap weekday rates!
I can roam around town and sit by the cafe with a good book!
Or if not, I can just lounge around the house with Bebe! YAY!
I can do weekday afternoon spas and manicures with the Tai Tais...!!!! HAHHAHAHAHA!
And I have a 1 whole day of fun with Joewe and Dajie! We had planned our leave in a way that we will overlap each other by 1 day!

YEASSSH!!!

Sunday, June 14, 2009

A Dog is a Man's Best Friend

I am quite sure of it. You may argue my point. But, I am 101% sure that a dog is a man's best friend. No wait, its a man's BFF.

2 weeks ago, Bebe came over to our place to stay. Bebe is our friend's dog and is here on a social visit pass.

I think I am going to miss her loads when she leave this weekend....

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

My RCIA Journey

For the last 2 months, I broke out of my usual routine.
Instead of hanging out at Boat Quay after work, I hanged out at the yoga studio and gyms.
I cut back on happy hour drinks and spent the evening sweating out.
Most importantly, every Tue evening, I commit myself to GOD and my search for a lil' peace in myself.

Well, of course I do miss hanging out with my fav. people and laughing oursevles silly at our 2nd homes ... hahahahaha!

But at the same time, I enjoy this period of discovering myself.

I am almost like 2 months into my RCIA classes. I remembered telling myself to attend RICA with an open heart and mind and let GOD do the rest.
On the 1st lesson, I remembered Fr Anson Pang words. What strikes me most is that he say that Religion is totally free-will. If halfway through, if for whatever reason, anyone can feel free to drop out of it. I really like that a lot.

There were many topics covered in RCIA classes. During dicussions and speeches, those topics never fails to strikes me. Its so related to what I am going through and facing.

For e.g: There was this topic on a guy who had made it rich and successful. Yet, he is not happy. He goes back home feeling empty. So, what is the missing link? Is there anything or anyone to fill up this vacum?

If you look around and you see the rich, ask yourself. Are they rich in their hearts as well? As we work harder for every penny earned, as we toil longer into working hours, as we put in a lil bit more effort than the last, have we stop in our fast-packed tracks to take a breather? Have we paused to take a look at the people close to us? Did we stop to allow our mind to rest?

Almost naturally, I find myself drawn into the world of fame, glory and riches. I find myself getting into the rat race inevitably.
But I have to agree that this is part and parcel of life... that we cannot slow down too much and that when the time comes, we should work hard to strive a comfortable life for loved ones and us. So, again the crux is really on striking that balance. Its easier said than done. But if you're reading this, my dear friends and loved ones, I hope you take time to ponder on too. And when you are faced with adversity, do allow some time for your tired mind to rest.

As I go on my search for my daily dose of spiritual food, I do humbly pray that you; my dear friend, find yours too.

Friday, April 17, 2009

A Break

I am tired...really really so tired ..

Mentally and Emotional tireness weighs me out and drags me to a worser state than never before.

I am still stuck in the rut. As much as I try to get out of it, it sinks me in deeper and deeper.

I need to find myself back. I am lost and have not been found.
I have to keep on searching for me. I lost me. My mind, my spirit and my will. I will find it back one day, i'm sure. But i don't know when. I hope soon.

Leaving for a break tomorrow. Bali seems like a good place to find myself back.
But i don't know if it can be done.. a little apprehensive

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

I have completed my very first week of Hot Yoga..YAY!
Religiously, i went to hot yoga every single week day last week. On sunday, i weighed myself on the bathroom scales. It reads 54.3kg... IDIOT.
Why??!! I want to be 48kg again!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday I made my own salad for lunch!
The receipe is here:
Ingredients:
Wild rocket leaves
Butterhead lettuce
Purple cabbage
Cucumber Slices
Ham Slices
Boiled egg slices
Rasins

Dressing:
Splash of lemon juice
Black pepper coarse seeds
Some sesame oil if you prefer
Chilli padi for that extra oomph!

Method:
Mix everything together and Voila! You get a healthy and yummy salad for lunch!
Totally refreshing!

I miss Joewe so much! Luckily she is coming back tomorrow! YAY!

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

A Babelicious Body!!

YAY!!!

I have finally finally signed up for Hot Yoga Classes @ the highly recommended Absoluteyoga.
Anywayz, I always wanted to go for those boutique yoga studios..no hard-selling please. Thank you very much.

Yesterday was my very 1st lesson.. and Oh My Holy Cow! It was damm HOT!
The studio was heated to about 43 degrees and after a few yoga poses, I was sweating buckets!! My sweat just kept going on and on! FWAH!! This is more effective than walking back home and jogging 6km!
Dajie went with me as well and it was so funny! She bought along a really auntie-looking piece of towel lah! so cute lah! hahahaha! At the end of the session, we both were so tired! But luckily we did not faint from the heat!

I am aiming to complete my 35 sessions within 5 weeks. By then , I praaay that I will have that Babelicious Body!!
So as of 6th april, I have 2.85% of that Babelicious Body!


Last friday, I went to Tampines to look at some Border Collies.. They were cute! But sadly, I can't seem to feel them. Maybe afterall, I am not fated to be a good dog owner..and so, the search for that ultimate BFF continues.

And oh last weekend, I did not strike 4D.
NBTT.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

happy april fools!

yay! On april fools day, i had new gifts for the house, courtesy of Starhub.

Apparently, starhub called mr tham and wanted to reward us for our loyalty! Fwah!

And so, our new toys are a 2mbps modem, a free land line and a free scv channel.

The land line makes me very happy! The number is swee! I'm so gonna strike 4d this weekend!

yay!!

Yay!

Thursday, March 26, 2009

I miss your smiles

Its been a long time since I last seen you smile. You know, the real happy smiles and laughter you always been able to carry off and infect others around you.

Its been a long long day; you are tired, weary, stressed out. The pressure is building up.
You are working very hard, putting in extra hours. There's no sympathy from co-workers.

You fought hard in all that you do. When it seems like you almost did it, the whole shit piles up again...

I hope I can help you by lending you the support you need. I will learn to be independent, and to take care of myself.

Dear, I know its tough but I also know you can do it. You will emerge stronger and better. Remember, you are not a quitter, but a fighter. This is what you told me.
What doesn't kills you makes you stronger, so never allow yourself to be killed easily.

I miss your smiles... and your funny jokes.. I miss your happy face..

Its has been rough. We are almost at the bottom already. Don't worry, cause very soon, we will rebound back. And when we do, it will be much better!!

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

11th March 2009

"There comes a point in your life when you realise who matters, who never did, who won't anymore and who always will....
So, don't worry about people from your past, there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future...

Monday, March 9, 2009

Time to wake up!

Yesterday, a dear friend of mine sent me an email..

Its a report written by CLSA. I don't think it can be anything much, amid the gloom and doom of the market..seriously, what else can you expect?

But it was the total opposite.

Apparently, this guy , named Andrew from CLSA wrote about "Acting your way into better thinking".

In essence, the report was about how he rode the stock market in Thailand's boom and bust of the early 90s. He went on to survive the 1997 Asia Financial Crisis. The crux of it all was he suffered some setbacks, but what got him out of depression was VOLUNTEERING.

Seriously, with the terrible market condition, its easy to get depressed. It kinda weighs people down.
But Andrew shared the 10 lessons he learned from surviving all this.

And here, i quote from Stotz, Andrew 2008:

1. Working harder may not bring in additional revenue. People just don't have the money to spend. Not understanding this can produce high stress.

2. The tax payer ultimately pays. In a debt driven crisis, indebted biz and individuals starts default, then goes bust. The govt has to pay depositors of bust banks , if not social system collapses. The govt eventually collects money from tax payers.

3. Money does not bring happiness and the loss of nearly all of an individuals wealth, though extremely painful, is not the end of the world.

4. When you feel depressed, help other people, really get into their situation and help them out. Donating your time is much more powerful (to both giver and receiver) than just giving money.

5. Pain is a partner of growth, the pain and struggles that Andrew faced helped him to be a stronger and better person. The pain also forced him into action to solve his problem and to build a more diversified life.

6. "You can't think your way into better action, you must act your way into better thinking".

Andrew also shared on how to act your way into better thinking. One of the ways which i totally so agree is to pick up new activities and hobbies and to keep one physically active. All these activities help to keep things in perspective and rebuild your positive spirit to live another day and make the world a better place.

I like dancing and running. What about you?

Thursday, March 5, 2009

Packing Up

Sometimes, i really feel like packing up.

Maybe i can do a backpack...(or can i?)
hahahaa...i guess most of us have been living in comfort in Spore, and as you know, Sporeans love to complain..and that includes me..

But seriously, if one day...how nice if I can just pack up my stuff, leave this place for a limited time, and roam around places.

Places where I can see the different aspects of life. Places where there are kind, beautiful and friendly people around. Where there's no hypocrisy, no self-centred people...

Jolene says there's no such place around..and if I should find one, i got to bring her along... hahaha..true true...But i really hope one day, there's this place...

But i know this is just blah blah talk...there's commitments to meet, there's responsibility to answer, there's people to consider... how can I just pack up?

Should go back to work now...maybe facing some silly numbers on the screen will make me feel better...but i seriously doubt so..

walking back home

Yes !! I finally did it!

Hahahhahaa..always wanted to walk back home from office..finally , on an impromptu day, i walked back home ..

I was at Boat Quay, and before i knew it..i was in Chinatown. I passed by the old shophouses and my steps slowed down to admire the rustic charms of the quaint and old neighbourhood.
Then i walked forth all the way from Outram Park all the way to Kim Tian Road.
It took me 1 hour and i almost finish playing all the songs on my pte ltd handphone music player.

Nonetheless, it was a good walk...there was a slight breeze and i was in my litte red flats..
I enjoyed looking at the passer-bys, at the buildings, at the people in their cars even! hahaha, its quite funny!

Most importanly, i feel totally acomplished when i reach my destination! I even went for a 6km slow jog...since i have "warm up" myself during the walk..

I must say after the whole workout, i feel totally refreshed and good!

Friday, February 20, 2009

最辛福的事

some excerpts from Liang Wen Ying's debut album..this song has wonderful lyrics and the MV is one of the best that i have seen.
Check it out at Youtube...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uw9Z70p2MlI&feature=PlayList&p=3E881809ABBAE3DB&index=

超感动! 每次听了,鼻子总是酸酸的。。。

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欢迎达乘思念特运.
我们现在将 从回忆出发, 延乘亿含, 一直走到青春。
左转往事到达记念日。接着,会经过失恋和舍得。

孤独山城 站.
失落 , Lost ----- 3km
青春 , Bloomy Youth------ 182 km away
到了沉默站,
为至爱的人,在左边心口保留位子,是最辛福的事。

然后,我们将从懂事离开, 上了珍惜共公路, 一直到沧海桑田。
我们要追逐着祝福的潮水。

思念点点站.
温柔---- 27km
遗憾草原。
寂寞超呼站.

遗憾出口。
眼泪下水道 , Tears Drainage---8 km
北上, 辛福, Happiness ---- 208km

一起往温柔前进,最后抵达目的地--- 最辛福的海。

Making a Choice

It's not going to be easy. But i have to think through in my most most clearest state of mind, in my most most matured and objective thinking and weigh out all the pros and cons.

Gosh...there must be a trade-off somewhere. If only i know.....

I seriously hate to make a decision. Maybe i am getting older. The consequences are too much to bear.

Remember when we were young? Time is all we have. I can jolly well make a wrong choice, admit the mistake and move on with it.

But that's like so hard now....I can't seem to fail...and do not want to fail.

But of course, even if i made the wrong choice, i still believe its ok. It may be a test for me..or just fate. Whatever it will be will be...

And i shall survive ...What doesn't kills me just makes me stronger

Thursday, February 19, 2009

I think i really really need to see a doctor soon....

I hope my body is ok. There's nothing wrong with me...

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Have been feeling a little down this week.

But, yet i think i manage to hide it rather well..behind the laughter, the fun and the jokes, is actually a face of sadness, thoughts of unhappiness and feelings of jealousy.

Its not that i want to hide, but rather circumstances have paved it that way for me..at K garden that night, i wasn't really enjoying myself..as to what others believe. But because its Joewe's birthday and birthdays are deemed to be happy occasions, I have to "act" accordingly. Life sucks.
And it's worse when it seems like there's really no one whom i can talk to.

I realise that i do not have much friends...real friends whom I can really share my deepest secrets and pour my sorrows to.
Though i can still talk to Greg, but a guy's view point most often contradicts a girls'.

I do envy those who have close girlfriends to talk to in needy times. Someone who will not judge you. someone who will hear you talk and not impose their own big, self-justified views on you.

Yes, i do not like and do not wish to hear your viewpoint. Yes, you ..that's you.
Isn't it irritating when people try to act so matured and talk about those 大道理?
Its not as if we don't know..but when emotions overides rationalism, isn't everyone equal?

I guess such is life. Its supposed to be unequal. But i do believe that nett effect is the same. When you lose some, you gain some.

Sigh...i don't know what i am writing anymore...
I think i need chocolates.

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Friendships, Religion, Money and The Material Life

Well, too many thoughts going through my tiny head past few days.

Hence a consolidated post of it...

Friendships
I attended a friend's wedding a week back and realise that my old friends..well, more or less have changed. Of course, that is just normal.. People do grow up and grow old. Viewpoints change. Priorties change. People do change.
I guess friendships need to be work on. Not taken for granted. Period.

Religion
In this coming new year, i hope to find a religion for myself. For a start, i will be enquiring and taking up the RCIA courses for Catholics. This does not equate to me being a Catholic at the end of the course, but more of an avenue to learn more about Christ and the Bible.

Money and the Material Life
2 days ago, i went shopping with Yeesze at Ngee Ann City.. where all the big flashy brands are housed. We visited almost every shop...tried on almost every bag but of course, left empty handed. Hahahahaha!
Well, i always felt that buying branded bags are such a total extravaganza. I don't mind the spulrge if i have the extra moolah....but in times like this, prolly Cash is king, right?
However, one just cant resist owing such nice bags...
then i recall what Mama always says (nags): There is no end to shopping. This week, you buy the prettiest dress. Next week, the shop is going to put another prettier one on sale. So, end of the day, do you still want to keep “chasing after it”?

And at such times, i do think back on the moolah i have been spending over the past few years. Especially applicable for the last 2 years.
I think its really about time i sit down and do some SERIOUS saving.

Chasing after the material life seems almost like for granted now. Take a look around you. Everyone is working their butts off everyday in office. Main purpose is to feed for oneself and paying for a roof over your head. Then, after paying off almost the car loan, the housing loan..its again time to upgrade and the loan starts all over again... Gosh, i hate the rat race but at the same time, i think i am, inevitably in it.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

2008 in a nutshell

Yes, i think by now, no one will disagree that 2008 has been a disastrous year.

We have an unprecedented financial disaster in 2008, where we witness the fall of Banks and Financial Institutions. We have seen the bloodbath in the stock markets. I see people going bankrupt and losing their hard earned savings through structured financial products.

There was also the sad cases of natural disasters in 2008. The Sichuan earthquake took away the lives of many young children. My heart goes out to their families living in painful memories now.

Terrorism left a mark in the History of India, Mumbai. The famous Taj Hotel will have one more story to tell now.

I don't think we can ever forget the man-made disaster , the Melamine Milk Scare in China as well.

I look through my 2008 desk top calender for the last time this morning ....
In summary, I spent the first half of 2008 quite happily.

In the 1st quarter of 2008, I spent quite a bit of time on my work....
In the 2nd quarter, there was quite a bit of celebrations and parties. We celebrated and welcome the arrival of newborns .... Paula's, Bernard's and Marina's.
I also witness the marriage union of Bro Keith and his wife, Joanne..

In the 2nd half of the year, I turned into a health exercise freak. My calender says I dance on Mondays, swim on Tuesdays and run on Wed / Thurs.
I don't remember sticking to this routine much...but still glad that I managed to break out of my rut and started exercising..

I did a bit of travelling this year too... All the trips were good and memorable.
April was Taiwan with my family... which i totally enjoyed as we spent some time together..
The trip to Korea in Nov with Greg was awesome as well. It was my first trip to somewhere so cold...and the experience was truly unforgettable.
Then of course, we had the mandatory-once-a-year trip to Bangkok with Ang Mo Kio Branch peeps.. the hotel was the best i ever stayed in BKK, all thanks to resourceful Kelly.

As i was about to bid farewell to 2008, i also say bye to Shandy Jie-Jie.
Shandy Jie-Jie left us on 26th Dec 2008, 0830 hrs.
She lost her life to cervical cancer. She was only 30 years old.
It was very sad to see her suffer in pain on the hospital bed. It was also very sad to see her leaving us. However, i know she is no longer in pain now. She is living happily in Heaven now.
One day, we will meet again. And when we do, she will be telling me her stories again...

In 2009, i hope to (btw, i am not going to call these resolutions):
1. Spend more time with families and loved ones..
2. Stay Healthy.
3. To achieve point 2, I will cut down on ciggs, do not binge drink, eat healthily, exercise frequently, sleep early, think positively.
4. Learn a new skill....
5. Continue Dancing
6. Grow my hair long
7. Start taking extra care in my skin as I am approaching the Big 3.
8. Save more moolah and invest wisely.
9. Treat people better
10. Focus more on my career and brush up my knowledge.
11. And lastly, family planning... :)

However, being "Linda", I will still continue to party hard, laugh loudly, bitch happily, have my rightful PMS symptoms monthly, shop lavishly and travel bi-yearly.

Tadah!!