Have been feeling a little down this week.

But, yet i think i manage to hide it rather well..behind the laughter, the fun and the jokes, is actually a face of sadness, thoughts of unhappiness and feelings of jealousy.

Its not that i want to hide, but rather circumstances have paved it that way for me..at K garden that night, i wasn't really enjoying myself..as to what others believe. But because its Joewe's birthday and birthdays are deemed to be happy occasions, I have to "act" accordingly. Life sucks.
And it's worse when it seems like there's really no one whom i can talk to.

I realise that i do not have much friends...real friends whom I can really share my deepest secrets and pour my sorrows to.
Though i can still talk to Greg, but a guy's view point most often contradicts a girls'.

I do envy those who have close girlfriends to talk to in needy times. Someone who will not judge you. someone who will hear you talk and not impose their own big, self-justified views on you.

Yes, i do not like and do not wish to hear your viewpoint. Yes, you ..that's you.
Isn't it irritating when people try to act so matured and talk about those 大道理？
Its not as if we don't know..but when emotions overides rationalism, isn't everyone equal?

I guess such is life. Its supposed to be unequal. But i do believe that nett effect is the same. When you lose some, you gain some.

Sigh...i don't know what i am writing anymore...
I think i need chocolates.